Kochi is a Feeling

Have you ever visited a place and felt perfectly at home? That was Kochi, India for me. The minute that Emmi and I got off of the airport shuttle in Fort Kochi we knew that we had found a place where our souls would be intensely happy. Right off the bus we were greeted by a man named Chuppy who directed us to our hotel and asked us if we would meet him for some authentic Keralan food at one of the beach front seafood shacks. We thanked him, dropped our suitcases off in our humble room, and walked to the center of the old colonized town to meet Chuppy and his friend Appu. We feasted on crabs, vegetable curry, and vegetable korma as we told the boys about how Kochi felt like the right place for us to get our matching pisces tattoos.

Emmi and I were born 6 hours apart and we have been planning on getting matching tattoos for a little over seven months. I found the image of our tattoo three years ago and fell in love with it. I’ve always felt deeply connected to being a pisces; I’m intuitive, creative, curious, spiritual, a total dreamer, at times naive, extremely indecisive, an escapist, a people pleaser, and I’m totally grounded in water. I “go with the flow.” When I showed Emmi the image of the tattoo she loved it. “Let’s do it” She said. But the tattoo represents so much more than just being pisces. it represents our ten years of friendship, and our persistence to make our dream of traveling the world come true, regardless of how many people didn’t think we could pull it off and regardless of how many people told us that we were crazy. It represents this trip, on which we will quite literally circumvent the planet. Pretty cool, right?

Anyways, that was the original meaning of the tattoo but it ended up meaning SO much more. It represents Kochi, India, the place that filled me with wisdom, the place that will always have a piece of my heart and soul. But let me rewind a little bit. One of the things I was really looking forward to in Kochi was our visit to the Santhi school of Yoga & Vedanta Studies. The master there is a man named Sajee, who has traveled all over the world and received titles from three countries for being a renowned yoga teacher. Anyways, for our first two hours with Sajee we were sort of put into a meditative trance, during which Sajee talked a lot about how pain is an illusion. He taught me that if we could control our minds, we could control our bodies, and if we can control our bodies, we can control the illusion that is physical pain. He reminded me that I am not my physical self, rather, I am my spirit. My body is my vehicle and I must nurture my vehicle with love and care if I want it to be durable. Breathing correctly is an important part of the process. How we breathe is indicative of how we feel and it affects how we feel.

After the meditation, Sajee pushed me harder than I’ve ever been pushed with yoga. Through breathing techniques and the right mindset, he challenged me to do a scorpion forearm stand and to hold it for 20 seconds, he had me put both of my feet behind my head, and he got me to do my first split. In my years of yoga, I had never been able to do any of these things, but with the right attitude and patience, it was easy. At the end of the session (which ran more than an hour over time and cost a grand total of 6$) Sajee told us that we had a special energy and that he hoped to see us again. He also told me that I should pursue teaching yoga. He stated that it came naturally to me because I was so willing to learn and he told me that if I stayed for a month he would certify me and I would be able to  contort my body like he could (which was crazy). He’s inspired me to pursue a certification, I would very much enjoy teaching yoga if I was trained by someone like him. Sajee also kept repeating that “cosmic energy flows through our veins” which is very ironic, because the very next day we found a tattoo shop that recreated a sketch of our tattoo perfectly, and the tattoo shop was called “Cosmic Ink.”

We were lucky because in our short time in Kochi, we had already become very close with Appu, who was nice enough to tag along to our tattoo appointment for moral support. When I was nervous, he touched my hand and when I asked him what he was doing, he told me that he was passing me his positive energy. My tattoo artist Anil had an incredible energy about him, too. He was regal and wise almost intimidating, but once we began talking I learned that he too was a yogi and that he was deeply spiritual. I trusted him wholeheartedly to do my tattoo justice. Before he began he told me that he quit being a well-paid engineer to become a tattoo artist because he wanted to help people realize their great destinies through his artistic medium. He also told me that he refuses to give meaningless tattoos, the art was far more important to him.

Anil began by blessing my skin and continued to check in with me while I tried to meditate through the pain. Meanwhile, Emmi was already getting her tattoo from one of the cool female understudies at his shop. I practiced breathing and telling myself that pain is an illusion. I focused on things that make me happy, like, the people that I love and my memories with them. I smiled a lot too, especially when I realized that Sajee had been right, pain IS an illusion, and meditating through the chaos is the only way to overcome the things that bring us human discomfort. I wrote in my diary and listened to feel good music and practiced deep and purposeful breathing while Anil inked my foot. If you know me and how squirmish I am, how much I hate needles, you would have been amazed at how well I handled getting tattooed. In all honesty it felt like someone was using an exacto knife to aggressively peel off my skin, but I have no memory of that pain; my experience was spiritual and meditative. I effectively mediated through the chaos, and I loved the final result of my tattoo.

After Emmi and I had our tattoos, Anil took us and Appu to a nice restaurant nearby for a beer. We ordered dinner and drank and had incredibly intellectual and spiritual conversations, and I learned Anil’s life story; about his struggle with dyslexia, his unhappiness with a career as an engineer, and about his mantras in life. He was brilliant and he had an amazing energy. When it was time for Emmi and I to leave, I went to pay and Anil refused to let me. He insisted that he wanted to treat our dinner because we were some of his “soul people.” He felt like my soul people too, and I couldn’t have asked for a better person to give me a tattoo, he was a friend. I never thought that I would get a tattoo, but I can honestly say that my tattoo harbors so much meaning to me and I’m happy that I’ll be reminded of Kochi and everything I learned there whenever I look down at it. I’m happy that it will be on my skin forever.

On one of our last nights, Appu and Anu took us to hang out on a rooftop, where we listened to the call to prayer in their muslim neighborhood. The following day was Ramadan and both of them were muslim. Eventually they asked us if we wanted to go drive around in Anu’s tuk-tuk and we happily said yes. We were driving for around 30 minutes or so when Emmi and I decided to ask them where they were taking us. “It’s a surprise” they said. It was a long and beautiful drive through nature, and when we finally stopped it was totally dark out. They took us to a beautiful and desolate white sand beach where the waves clapped aggressively against the shore. The sky was big and beautiful and the stars were radiant. I felt my affinity to the ocean and I felt the fish on my foot craving to swim in her waters. I smiled. I was thankful for the moment disconnected from society. We walked for a while and then went to the only shack by the beach to get dinner. No one at the shack spoke English, only Malayalam. We told them to bring us whatever was good, and they brought us a couple of yummy dishes. It felt like Appu, Anu, Emmi, and I were a wolfpack. Like we had been friends forever. There was comfortable silence and good conversation during which we hit a couple of hilarious language barriers. They taught us a Malayalam saying; “Shanti, Shanti” Which quite literally means “Peace, peace.” They told us that in Kerala, people say that “Kochi is a feeling.” It is a divine and spiritual and wise feeling and I will always remember it.

On our last night in Kochi we had dinner by the beach with Appu and Anu before heading to the airport, heartbroken. We could have stayed forever and we were so sad to be leaving India. Kochi was home and it will always be home. I will never forget the friends that we made; Appu, Anu, Anil, and Sajee. I will never forget their wisdom and how Kochi helped me to grow and become a better person. I will never forget the feeling that is Kochi, it’s inked on my foot forever, and I couldn’t be happier about it.

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